"It felt weird. And I couldn't figure out why it felt weird, cause like -- there were other people there with the same kind of arrangement, right? Like they were together, committed --"
(He cannot prevent Max's face from shining in his mind right there, or two other closely associated faces: a young man with longish blond hair and a laughing grin, a person with short-cropped dark hair and a face both delicate and strong. He misses them so damn much.)
" -- and they'd all of them gone to bed with me one time or other, so what was different? And then I thought, like ... maybe what's different is I knew they wanted to, and weren't just asking cause I wanted to."
He twists the bit of straw in his hand, starts coiling it around one finger, grimaces, and stops.
"So I asked her was that it, was it something she wanted or just something she thought I wanted. And she din't know." He breathes out. "Never thought about it. Kind of upset her when she did."
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(He cannot prevent Max's face from shining in his mind right there, or two other closely associated faces: a young man with longish blond hair and a laughing grin, a person with short-cropped dark hair and a face both delicate and strong. He misses them so damn much.)
" -- and they'd all of them gone to bed with me one time or other, so what was different? And then I thought, like ... maybe what's different is I knew they wanted to, and weren't just asking cause I wanted to."
He twists the bit of straw in his hand, starts coiling it around one finger, grimaces, and stops.
"So I asked her was that it, was it something she wanted or just something she thought I wanted. And she din't know." He breathes out. "Never thought about it. Kind of upset her when she did."